"Please come to bed and let me see you and feel you."
So I was in the gym on my campus on the elliptical since my stomach can’t handle anything else when I noticed a handsome guy. Now with having noticed I went about my business and was listening to my audiobook while working out. I finished up after a bit and went into the locker room to change. During that time I ran out of water so I went to the refilling station only to run into that particular guy. He smiled as he walked by and I simply nodded back before filling up my water bottle. Not even a minute later he is back and telling me sorry for being so forward as he wanted to know if I wanted to go and grab coffee sometime. Color me surprised. I am a sweaty mess with no makeup on and no doubt looked silly working out. Yet, he was so nervous his hands were shaking as he put my number in his phone.
So, I guess I have a date with the handsome gym guy for lunch in a few days. Definitely boosted my confidence!
Day in the life of me.
So I try not to vent here as it is just some place for my favorite things and new ideas to be sorted, but today was a bit different. There is a fellow girl(could never think of her as a woman due to her immaturity) at my church who I have known for a few years. She is beautiful, tall, and unbelievably talented and has so much going for her. However, she is poison on the inside. She has been blatantly rude and hurtful to me for months and yesterday it just became exacerbated. Some things were done and said and I just didn’t have the heart or courage to address. My best friend happened to have seen the tail end of it and told her off, but I was much too concerned of hurting someone. I genuinely care for and love people even though sometimes they are not the nicest. I just am much too easily intimidated and afraid of confrontation. So she left me feeling little and ugly. Today my best gal pal invited me over to do the ALS bucket challenge and just swim so I said sure and her brother suggested we invite this girl and of course I wanted to be polite and my best friend quickly made a stop to that. She told me that she didn’t deserve to be invited due to her behavior towards me. It isn’t very often that someone will stick up for me, particularly with this girl who can do no wrong. So, even though I feel icky and emotionally drained after every encounter, I felt loved by my close friends today and it helped me get out of this slump of uncertainty. The Lord has blessed me with such beautiful people to be surrounded by.
Hey there C:
5. What are you looking forward to in the next week?
Honestly, I can’t be too sure. I start my morning classes Monday, so maybe my classes since I am taking a Life Drawing course which is exciting. I haven’t dabbled in drawing in quite some time.
14. Is there one person in your life that can always make you smile?
I am unbelievably blessed in this department. I have so many people that truly care for me and can always leave me feeling light and happy, even when they are half way across the world or right at home. I can easily think of a few. They definitely make my life that much better.
49. Have you ever been to New York?
Sadly, no. I was making plans to go this summer to see museums and an actual broadway show, but it never happened. Traveling is super expensive. I hope to one day go just to see all the historical parts of New York and of course to see a play. c: